and i lost my head... and thought of all the stupid things i'd said

the last year of my life has had a lot, and i mean a lot, of endings. some beginnings, a few middles... but mostly endings.



as you can imagine, endings are always difficult for me. and no, i'm not talking about ending facebook.




i hate endings. hate. changing something - that i can deal with well eventually. but endings always take longer.
endings that i have a hand or say in and endings that i do not have a say in are practically the same in terms of emotions.


i know that i wrote about this last time, but i have to hear it again: life is short. really short. death (of a person or of whatever) can come when you least expect it, let alone when you least want it. it's funny to me that people use "lifetime" as a measure of something that lasts a long time. the reality is that a lifetime is a drop in the ocean. i don't mean to imply that a lifetime is unimportant or menial. a lifetime being short is, in my opinion, part of what makes it valuable.


i know, i know... i repeat myself. we all have a short time together. every day is important. all we get is today. and sometimes we don't even get all of that. sometimes it can all come to a crashing hault.


today is here. and it's the only thing that is.




ssdd,
levi